Sunday morning, early hours, the sun’s barely awake, and Lane is out the door again, this time for three weeks. Back and forth, in and out. Are you here or there? Home or not? Is it me alone again? But this is what’s required and this is what we want to do and so this is what we do. Is it ... Read More
This mothering life? Harder Than I Ever Imagined.
Sometime in the 1 o’clock hour the other night, a child began crying for me. Well, no, it wasn’t crying, exactly. It was screaming bloody murder. I have always been a little impressed when a parent can go from fast asleep dreaming to racing down the hall- both to tend to the restless child, but ... Read More
All Is Well, After All: On Advent, Hope, and the World On Fire
The car wouldn’t start this morning. A simple problem in the scheme of things, a first world problem really, as they say. But nonetheless, it was my engine that chugged, my car that wouldn’t turn over, my schedule that got rearranged that day. And so I sit in the front seat, hoping against ... Read More
This is the kind of love that will heal a broken heart
Were you to ask how I’ve been doing, I’d probably say fine. Because really, we’re fine, it’s been fine. Hasn’t it all been fine? And then it’s entirely obvious we’re not fine at all. I wouldn’t say I’ve been completely aware of all of the things building into this crescendo, because so much of ... Read More
Love Is Not Losing Your Mind Over the Not Important Things
We’re sitting at the table in the morning, sun not quite yet up, coffee cups in our hands, waking up slow and gently and together. It’s this togetherness that throws me off, not the waking up early part. Two hundred and thirty days gone and then with the landing of a plane he’s back and the normal ... Read More
For the Brave and Extraordinary Ones We Serve Alongside, A Prayer for this Memorial Day
My doorbell rang the other day, 8:30 am. This is it, I immediately think, This is what I’m wearing when I find out he’s gone. It ended up being a neighborhood kid returning something her mama had borrowed the night before. /// He’s been traveling around the country- not ours, the one ... Read More