I was already awake, but barely, when Brennan walked into my room at 1:00 in the morning last night. See, I had had a bad dream and was just beginning to talk myself down- it was after all just a dream, a silly dream, of course I didn’t lose my wedding rings. As dreams tend to go I don’t know why … [Read more...] about Sometimes Mothering Is Hard
being a mama
you are already amazing
She always looks at herself in the mirror differently than I ever did. I catch her every now and then, gazing at the mirror, practicing different smiles and ways of holding her shoulders back with her head up and a smirk of pride crosses her lips. A smirk of pride crosses Brennan’s face when she … [Read more...] about you are already amazing
dear kindergarten mamas
Our babies were wrinkled and tiny and new and now they’re not. Our babies were little and dependent and ours and now they aren’t. We don’t know when it changed, all we know is that it did. It’s like the plane engine humming throughout a flight yet you only realize how loud it was in the air … [Read more...] about dear kindergarten mamas
courage, dear heart
I see you everywhere. You're there in the store, attempting to try on maternity clothes with the toddler climbing underneath the door, spotting her window of escape. You're in your driveway at 7am, already dressed and getting in the car and heading to work and starting the new day. You're … [Read more...] about courage, dear heart
8 phrases that help me in my parenting
Lane and I have been laughing lately at my "mommyisms." See, there are a handful of phrases that I keep in my back pocket and use regularly as the right situation arrises. They are phrases that I have either picked up along the way or have heard other mamas I respect use with their own … [Read more...] about 8 phrases that help me in my parenting
on being a mama when love feels heavy
The woman that we invited into our world said that in our girls' eyes, I am the heavy one and Daddy is the good one. To our girl, to the one that I carried as she grew and she kicked, the one whose owies I kiss away when she feels brave, the one whose bangs I brush out of her eyes... to that … [Read more...] about on being a mama when love feels heavy