Sunday morning, early hours, the sun’s barely awake, and Lane is out the door again, this time for three weeks. Back and forth, in and out. Are you here or there? Home or not? Is it me alone again? But this is what’s required and this is what we want to do and so this is what we do. Is it ... Read More
This mothering life? Harder Than I Ever Imagined.
Sometime in the 1 o’clock hour the other night, a child began crying for me. Well, no, it wasn’t crying, exactly. It was screaming bloody murder. I have always been a little impressed when a parent can go from fast asleep dreaming to racing down the hall- both to tend to the restless child, ... Read More
In the Midst of All of These New Year’s Resolutions, This is the Only Thing That Really Counts
This new year has begun how most of them do: both slowly- with 360 days ahead of us still; and with the drop of a ball- so sudden. Such hope. New year, new you, right? Do you feel new yet? Oh, it’s all over the place, isn’t it though- these ways to become new. There’s the way of organization ... Read More
All Is Well, After All: On Advent, Hope, and the World On Fire
The car wouldn’t start this morning. A simple problem in the scheme of things, a first world problem really, as they say. But nonetheless, it was my engine that chugged, my car that wouldn’t turn over, my schedule that got rearranged that day. And so I sit in the front seat, hoping against ... Read More
When You Feel Divided and Overwhelmed, Look Here
Late afternoon, hungry babies, I stand distracted and twelve different places in a single moment. I’m in the kitchen, meat frying in the skillet, wiping down the counters, thinking about problems and worries and decisions, and spending minutes I don’t have on social media, because that, of ... Read More
This is the kind of love that will heal a broken heart
Were you to ask how I’ve been doing, I’d probably say fine. Because really, we’re fine, it’s been fine. Hasn’t it all been fine? And then it’s entirely obvious we’re not fine at all. I wouldn’t say I’ve been completely aware of all of the things building into this crescendo, because so much of ... Read More