When I’m being honest, I don’t know how to do this. The lights hang outside and the star sits atop the tree and childlike wonder dances through our very house and we talk about the birth of peace itself yet I still just can’t even. It’s too much, as Ellie says when I ask her to clean up. It’s ... Read More
building a real marriage: how to restore the broken pieces
He walks in from work and I’m at the kitchen counter, chopping onions and potatoes and handing out carrots to hungry babies who just cannot even wait a single minute longer for dinner to be ready, they are the hungriest they have ever been, ever. He walks up behind me and wraps his arms around me, ... Read More
raising girls in a victoria’s secret world
We went into Victoria’s Secret the other day, my three girls and I. I never thought I would bring them there but this day, I had to. The younger two are in a double stroller and Brennan, my five-year-old, beside me. I had ordered two bras online and neither of them fit so we had to actually go ... Read More
when you feel like life is too hard
We sat down on the couch at 8:30am on a Sunday morning, there were some things we needed to talk about. So with the baby already down for a nap and the other two in the other room, he and I sat on the couch to talk about his upcoming trip for work. Work trips used to be to conferences, squeezing ... Read More
the sacred work of no space
Since the very beginning, I saw that she was more mine than the other two were. Oh, they love me, of course; they adore me absolutely. I am their sun as their days and their hearts revolve around mine. But the other two, they are their Daddy’s. If I am their sun, he is their shooting star, ... Read More
when staying married feels impossible
Somehow we have ended up here- eleven years in, three wild and free babies, our North Carolina home, sitting on the back porch on the last evening of the summer, drinking wine and laughing and lamenting and dreaming and talking about who we are and who we once were and our truest true. One of us ... Read More