We’re at the dinner table, Lane walked in the door late, later than he thought he would, later than he told me. Par for the course in a military life though, he puts his bag down, enters the fray. The conversation has gone anywhere from school to tadpoles to Kindergarten-sized knock-knock jokes, a … [Read more...] about The Surprising Loneliness of Military Marriage
We say goodbye, my military man goes and does his military thing, my heart aches, my body aches, my girls ache. He comes back home, we’re on a walk around the neighborhood hand in hand, watching our little girls race ahead of us and back again. A neighbor passes us in the car, slows down … [Read more...] about Keep Not Quitting: On Hard Things, Perseverance, and Making it Through Together
It’s a Thursday, dinnertime. We’ve made the food, fed the children, and the house has dissolved into utter chaos. The older two girls are playing actual tag around my kitchen island, and Mae, who feels feelings and feels them big, is still upset that she didn’t get to eat goldfish for … [Read more...] about Military Marriage and Holding onto Love for the Long-haul.
We’re at a neighbor’s house, late afternoon, a few families gathered together. Pizza and games and the night ticking down, we’re laughing and and it all feels like a deep breath. I should have known better, maybe, I find myself thinking later; should I have known better? Can we ever breathe in deep … [Read more...] about A Soldier’s Wife and a World on Fire: A Love Story.
I wake up in the morning, early early, still dark, and hear something that sounds like a fire alarm. I immediately look up to my ceiling- nope, not that- but it’s that same ear-piercing, high-pitched wail and it’s not stopping. I stumble downstairs, disheveled but determined to not let that sound … [Read more...] about Rocks in the Water: The Hard Parts of Love and Markers of a Marriage that’s Real.
Last night I had several dreams that woke me up one right after the other all night long- all bad, all scary, all involving Lane. When my alarm went off this morning I was completely confused and couldn’t remember what day exactly it was. Should it be going off? Was last night real? One of … [Read more...] about Cards on the Table: Marriage, Meaning, and Living For Not Against