When Lane arrived to this unit, they were already overseas so he signs in, kisses us goodbye, jumps on a plane, meets up with his guys in the Middle East. I tell him this isn’t my favorite way to do a deployment, new and alone and not quite sure how I’m going to make it through, who’s going to be … [Read more...] about When Broken Is Strong: The Military Wives Who Rise Up Anyway
We say goodbye, my military man goes and does his military thing, my heart aches, my body aches, my girls ache. He comes back home, we’re on a walk around the neighborhood hand in hand, watching our little girls race ahead of us and back again. A neighbor passes us in the car, slows down … [Read more...] about Keep Not Quitting: On Hard Things, Perseverance, and Making it Through Together
I’ve been paying attention to my reactions to this reverse ripple effect of Coronavirus as the rings get closer and closer in, as we feel it impact our own lives and our own loved ones. I’ve been paying attention to my anxiety and fear as it ebbs and flows, the decisions we’ve had to make as a human … [Read more...] about When Courage Needs to be Loud: On Military Wives, a Worldwide Pandemic, and Gritty Love
It’s a Thursday, dinnertime. We’ve made the food, fed the children, and the house has dissolved into utter chaos. The older two girls are playing actual tag around my kitchen island, and Mae, who feels feelings and feels them big, is still upset that she didn’t get to eat goldfish for … [Read more...] about Military Marriage and Holding onto Love for the Long-haul.
We’re at a neighbor’s house, late afternoon, a few families gathered together. Pizza and games and the night ticking down, we’re laughing and and it all feels like a deep breath. I should have known better, maybe, I find myself thinking later; should I have known better? Can we ever breathe in deep … [Read more...] about A Soldier’s Wife and a World on Fire: A Love Story.
All five of us, miracle of miracles, sit at the dinner table, eating chicken that Lane grilled and potatoes that I made just like any other family in America. Our conversation drifts to the following weekend and I mention a BBQ that we have been invited to- can we go to that? “Oh, no, … [Read more...] about When Being a Military Wife Feels Too Hard